“2014 will be the year that I am going to look back and think to myself, that was a real turning point for me and my work.”
I wrote this on January 4th. I thought I knew what I needed. I thought I knew what was best for me. Turns out that I know nothing. I had absolutely no clue how true the above quote was going to be. I am a different person, emotionally, and professionally. I have learned a lot over the past 8 months. A lot about human nature, about breaking bad habits, and creating good ones. I’ve learned about myself and what I am capable of.
The ability to look FEAR in the face, and not let him drive me where he wants, is one of the things I have been most aware of. This is not easy, and I wasn’t sure I would be able to do it. When it came down to either fighting or giving up, I was able to surrender to a greater good, and I was able to come out on top.
This is a daily struggle. I didn’t realize how much fear I had.